Actions with reactions!!

Doesn't it happen sometime that you are compelled to do an act?

An act, if it was performed by some other guy, would have flooded you with torrents of antipathy for that guy. For you are aware, how much loathsome the act is. Its whole inception is revolting. And you know perfectly that once you are over with the act and the people around have laughed their bellies off, your guilt will summon the conscience and rebuke her.
Lately I am performing such acts and it is going on for a while.

And whenever Lady Guilt summoned Miss Conscience, lord intellect came for her defence. The explanation given by Solicitor "Lord Intellect" in defence of his client, the very petite "Miss Conscience" was that the whole abominating act was part of one of the social experiments that was being performed as part of the study "Understanding the human psyche in an unadulterated way" and undertaken in accordance with the writ of “King Wisdom”, the old monarch.
(To tell you the truth, I have a definite feeling that the writ was issued by King Wisdom under the spell of the evil witch, “Whimsy” who roams around the Kingdom of “human psyche” with her humped back and a glass eye. She is always looking for a way to break the shackles which were placed by Late “Sir Ethics” using a magic spell named “Society fear”.)
So, every time Lady Guilt filed a public litigation, Lord Intellect, armoured with his astute arguments and sly comments, aptly defined that none of the acts were party to any physical abuse to any person around and the emotional outrage was meticulously monitored and kept at minimum hazards.
After a slew of defeats and mental exhaustion, Lady Guilt preferred to ally with a notorious goon “Mr. Instinct”. Well! Mr Instinct has always been infamous for creating the greatest gaffes in history and of late with the proper and timely instigation by Lady Guilt, he is causing much trouble. It is kind of out of court settlement to prove to Mr. Intellect that his reasoning can be made helpless in front of the uncertain and spontaneous reactions of Mr. Instinct (mind the fact that it is not actions but reactions).
Off late Mr. Instinct is reprimanding my acts with the sudden and honest expression of my dislike for them and in that way sabotaging the whole objective of the study.

So, what is more terrifying to me is the fear of a backlash by my instincts and a sudden burp of an honest confession that: In fact, I understand the act was offensive and believe me dear people around, it is truly not what I want to do; not when I am sane. And that the honest confession will make me look like a buffoon much more than the performance of those stupid acts ever will. It is one thing to be a fiend but a to be a fiend cognizant of his devilry is a bloody image carnage.

But even if the instinct doesn't drive me up to open my mouth, I understand and after every such act I ponder over. But it is just a bit complicated to explain why every time I am lured into such acts and then castigate myself as my guilt cries off in a dark room along with my conscience?

Wait a minute. Hey. Is this you Mr Instinct?

-Remember